Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Stupidity kills the pussycat
Guess where I am?
- customer's place?
- Taman Tasik Shah Alam?
Naaayyyyyy ... your answers are all wrong!
I'm at home, faking sick and hating myself.
Well, OK, yes maybe I have been feeling rather sick since last night, I had stomach cramps again (the ever un-curable period pain). I knew I should've stick to that herbal sanitary pad, why oh why I bought another brand? Anyway, that decision was not stupid enough to make me wanna cry and bang my head on the wall at the same time.
If stupidity has a scale of 1 to 10, I feel like I'm already at 9.5. Okay, okay... let's stop this guessing game. This frustrated entry is related to my career development (again?? I thought everything turned out okay after getting that new SS title?) Well, the answer is NO.
The problem is, now it's quite complicated for me to discuss the real issue with anyone. I don't have a strong argument, I don't have the hard evidence, if I were to be brought to court, I'll surely lose the case. The only explanation to the mess I've put myself in is plain stupidity. How stupid was I? Stupider than stupid. Maybe you'll understand how that feels if I tell you that currently I really feel like disappearing from the world for the next two weeks or so.
Maybe I felt cheated and humiliated but I knew it was partly my mistake, that's why I feel like vanishing for awhile. It's not that I can't face my relatives, colleagues and friends. It's just that I think I need some space and time to recover, otherwise I'd just snap, burst or do more stupid things.
I think it's time to visit a good career shrink. Recommend me, if you know any.
If you still wanna continue with the guessing game, well here are the clues:
- performance appraisal
- professional certification
- project execution
Combine them all together, I'm sure you can guess what's my frustration is all about.