It's not only because of the car accident I'm writing this.
I have told some friends about 'other' things that happened
to me before fasting month that had raised some concerns in
I think it all started about one month before Ramadhan. At
nights, I'll have difficulty sleeping, and when I managed to
finally drift away I had unexplainable nightmares. Sometimes
I remembered some part of it, sometimes none. The dreams were
all blurry, almost dark and unpleasant. There was one, when
I dreamed running away from something (or maybe it was someone)
in the streets of New York. When I woke up, I was feeling
so tired I could hardly walk to the bathroom. When I reached
the office, I realised that I had blue-black markings on my
right arm. There were 3 lines, my colleague asked who did it
to me because the marking suggested that somebody has held my
arm real hard. I don't remember anybody holding me so hard
until it hurt. I played with the kids and we sometimes throw
toys at each other, but toys won't leave that kind of marking.
After almost a week, the blue black marking vanished.
However, the next week I had another dream. I was alone in a
dark room almost suffocated and drenched in sweat. I was
crying for help but nobody could hear me. Same as the previous
week, I woke up feeling exhausted and the shirt I wore was
wet with my sweat. Then, that afternoon, again I found a
blue black marking on my arm, this time on the left one.
This time I showed them to S.H and N.B. From their expression
I knew they were going to say something I prefer not to hear,
but the kept it to themselves.
That mark also vanished within the week.
I couldn't remember exactly what was my dream on the third
week but I found myself almost sobbing when I woke up the
next morning. It must have been something really sad. With
heavy feet and aching body I went to the bathroom, then
found markings on both arms, about 2cm from the wrist.
When I looked at them, they suggested that someone was
holding both my hands from the front. That someone must
have held it real hard as the blue black marking was so
When I met S.H at the office's surau she suggested I
put a Yaasin under my pillow. According to her that might
help to eliminate 'devil' from her suspect list. Then I
asked her, whether we can eliminate jins too? She said,
she's not sure as there are Muslim Jins in this universe.
Then we decided, ok let's see what happen during Ramadhan.
If I'm okay, it could've been the syaitan's work.
So, during the first week of Ramadhan my arms were all
clear and had undisturbed sleep at night. I was relieved.
On Thursday afternoon I was trapped in the office lift
for 20 minutes - alone.
Come the second week of Ramadhan everything seemed fine.
On Tuesday, I was involved in a car accident, and I sped
Today, my left eye has been twitching since morning. You
might know or still remember what our grandmas told us
about twitching left eye, right? Some sad news or
not-so-good news could be on the way.
No, I'm not asking you to analyze the dreams and the
events. It's just that I've been feeling weird and thought
it would be best to share it with you.
Updated a few hours later:
Wanna know what's the not-so-good news? (The reason why
my left eye was twitching the whole morning.) I called
my hubby and he happened to be at the police station, his
car has been broken into. His colleague's laptop was
missing from the boot, along with a few books and flight
tickets. If that's not enough, when I reached home I
found a registered letter addressed to my hubby. It was so
familiar, as it was a traffic summon for speeding on the
North-South highway... Hmmmm... I reserve my comments.
But, you all can comment, as usual. :)